I got laid...OFF
Is the middle of the day and I am sitting here eating my yogurt and working on Morir Sonando. Have not bathed, don't plan on an outfit, no idea when lunch will be and then it hits me... I got laid off. I start to think about all of the free time I am going to have to myself now and how am I going to handle it. I try to get a hold of my emotions but I just can't grasp it yet.
Unfortunately, the fashion industry isn't always as stable as you think it is and after over 4 years working I get laid off for the first time. Yes, I got laid off last week, no big deal though, and very much to my surprise... I am taking this with ease and a positive outlook. You live and you learn. But wait.. let's be real for a second, when you get laid off all of these thoughts start to run through your mind. BILLS, BILLS & BILLS? Can you pay my bills? Can you pay my telephone bills? Are you my sugar daddy? Por que dime, la renta se deba. (rent is due)
The day I got laid off, I had this gut feeling (which never fails me). I was heading to my first market appointment of the day when i tripped on some stairs, first sign. Being the cool, calm and collective person that I am, I brushed it off and went about my morning. 2 hours later, our market appointment gets cancelled and I get called into the "DEVIL WEARS FRADA" office. Yes, FRADA not PRADA! A few months back, I was really stressed out at work. It seem like everything I did was done incorrectly. There was a lack of management so everything was just out of place. Our team wasn't communicating well enough with each other. It got to the point where anxiety pills were prescribed to me to keep me calm at work. I already knew what was going to happen. It was as if I was preparing myself to receive the news that I have been laid off because my position was so called terminated. Now, let's be serious, my position didn't get terminated, business wasn't performing the way they expected. Of course, I was in shock! Then, I thought to myself things happen for a reason. Like I told my mother "One door closes and another door opens". I didn't guilt myself or cried etc. Instead, I walked out of that place with a smile on my face.
I only shared the news with a couple of my close family members, friends and my boyfriend. All were very supportive and told me everything will be alright and back to normal. To be quite honest, this day was one of the greatest days ever. I spent it surrounded by love ones that made me even forget that I wasn't waking up the next day to fix shipping issues or work on buy sheets or even track samples down. It felt like something was taken off my shoulders and I was able to breathe again. I truly believe something bigger and better is waiting for me. At times, some jobs do hold you back from something better out in the field. And this was my kick out the door to greatness.
I have no actual plans on what to do with my free time. So far, I just been relaxing and gathering my thoughts on what I want my next career move to be. So far, my days off has consists of just relaxing, makeup free, curly hair, gym, playing the house wife role till #bae comes back from work. Now that I am not working, I told myself I am not going to eat outside anymore. I make sure to buy groceries and to make breakfast, lunch and dinner at home. No more desserts. I LOVE DESSERT!! Also, no need to be going to the salon every week. Natural curly hair it is. I am still a sucka for a fresh manicure and pedicure so baby steps for now.
And as for the next step...I want to start looking after I come back from Jamaica, but part of me is telling me to enjoy the time off and just freelance to gain extra cash till July. Knowing the type of person I am, I will be working right after I come back from Jamaica as I am a total "GIRL BOSS" at heart. But I am taking this shift from the universe to find out what I want next in life because I don't want to be stuck in another miserable position. Always remember "Sky's the limit".