Wrapping Up 2017
It is a few days before Thanksgiving, and the “official” start of the holiday season. You might of started to decorate, hey my Christmas tree was up a week after Halloween so no judgement! You might already started stressing about sitting in your family's living room, and being asked 100 questions about your life, or probably stressing how you are going to manage buying all those gifts without robbing a bank. This year for me I see this upcoming season a little different. When we started the blog in March one of my first posts was called “My Saturn Return.” It was a journal of my journey as I entered a new phase in my life. This was a very special posts as I felt as though I was opening the door to a new stage. Now, about a year and half since that experience, as I gear up to close another year that God has blessed me with, I have been thinking how I want to end the year. I am once again ready to open a new door and a new stage.
The holiday season can be broken up into 3 different holidays that make up this magical time. Thanksgiving, Christmas/Hanukkah/Kwanzaa (whichever you celebrate), and New Years. This year these holidays read a little different than what outfit am I going to wear, and whose house am I going to visit. This year I want to focus on Giving Thanks, Showing Love, and Rebirth!
First for Thanksgiving, I want to show the immense gratitude I have for everything I have been blessed with. I have seen so many people lose loved ones, and I have heard of so many people go through so much this year that anything my heart has endured is miniscule to what could've happened. For that I want to show thanks. Every year I usually do a vision board for the next year but this year I’ve learned to trust the process. Although vision boards are an amazing way to manifest, especially goals in our early life, where I am in life now I believe that what I need is an Inventory board. Instead of going crazy about accomplishing certain things I want to shift my focus and put it on everything I have. This thanksgiving I plan to create a board in the same concept of a Vision Board, but put on it everything, and everyone I am thankful for. I want this practice to set the tone for what this holiday season, and year wrap up means to me. I am really blessed, and I have learned through this year that I have very little to complain about, and even though as humans we still do it, I want to have something that shows me all I have rather all I have left to do.
Second is Christmas, and what is known as a time of gifting. I want this year to be a time where I make sure I genuinely show others what I feel for them. That will be my gift to them. As the year is about to end I realized that life goes by fast and not everyone you started this year with is next to you as the year ends. I want those I love to know I love them. I want to start as of December 1st, and each day that leads up to Christmas pick one or two people and tell them how much they mean to me. I want to give the gift of significance to others. Some days people forget what they mean in this world, and they need a reminder. This little reminder may help them push through some of the worse days. I am so lucky to have a handful of friends that, who knows how, but, when I am at my lowest they always know to text me. The text might not have any context in conversation, it might just be a random “you are great,” or “you mean a lot to me,” and that honestly has meant the world to me because it lifts my spirits, and allows me to battle a few more days.
Lastly is New Years. This ritual will be all about me. I want to first forgive myself. Forgive myself for the stepping stones I didn’t take, or the decisions that failed, and for the screw ups that just live as chips on my shoulder. Fuck it girl, at least we made it! I want to take the time, quiet time, to honestly forgive myself. Let it all go and sit with my own flaws and faults. Then I want to remove all definition from who I am. I am a blank slate. I am nothing. I am without expectations. This is essential for the start of the New Year. I don’t want to start a new year with any ties to what “I should be.” 2018 I just want to exist. To live and follow my little heart. No matter what is expected from me. Fuck expectations. Just expect this little wild girl to keep growing. I want to accept that I was wrong, on everything and anything. I want to accept that I know nothing. Why? Because this is going to make me get ready for a new year of growth! When I wrote My Saturn Return I realized I was writing it from a place of a student, and I grew more in that year than I have ever grown in my life. I plan to do it again. I don’t know anything, and I humbly understand that life has so much to teach me. I want to accept that I have fears, stupid ones, and big ones. I want to sit with my fear, my expectations, and my flaws and let it go. I want to wash them away, and really treat 2018 as a year of newness.
I hope me sharing this with you encourages you to join me and bring in the holiday season with a new perspective. I don’t put down the traditions of dinner, gifting, and all that comes with the holidays, but I do encourage you to take up a more meaningful appreciation to what this time means to your own personal growth. It is no coincidence that this time is at the end of the year. It is a time to reflect and appreciate all the past 10 months have offered us. Take these last days and set the tone for what is to come. Life is flashing us by, slow down, and sit with yourself, and all that God, and the Universe has offered you so that you don’t one day look back and feel like you missed out. 2017 was one strong year, good and bad.. But if you reading this you made it!